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What we are to renounce.

When I was an infant I was taken to the house of friends of my parents.

even as a one and two year old I  did not want to go there

stuff had already happened

I remember as a two year old screaming "nooooo !!!!! "

I remember arguing with my parents not to go there.

guess I remember because my memory was locked in trauma

and stuff I could not comprehend at the time.

I have heard of survivors of abuse being told by their minister

to repent.  such inappropriate advice cause further offence.

no one should be asked to repent for another's sin or abuse.

I renounce what those monstors did to me.

that is I refuse to internalise it

or if I did I uninternalise it.

it was not my sin.

more later